Where do I start?
At the beginning, of course.
But where is my beginning?
Is it when I was born to my biological mother?
Was it when I arrived as adoptee to Minnesota?
Was it when I was living on my own?
Was it when I got married?
So many beginnings.
But, with this blog, the beginning would be when I met Lisa.
I met Lisa the day I started 1st grade and she became my Best Friend For Life.... how little we knew then of the commitment for "Life".
Friends date. Lisa and I dated. You could even say we had a Common Law Marriage. We were together for over 7 years and we shared everything: ice cream, spoons and forks, clothes, makeup, lip gloss, journals, beds, baby sitting gigs, stories, laughs, tears and dreams.
Then one day.. I noticed she wasn't returning my calls. In hindsight it was probably long before I noticed so by the time I noticed, it was too late. She had moved on and in with Frannie.
What hurts the most and still hurts is that I was not given any explanation of why she dumped me.
Which is why, to this day, I struggle with Girlfriends. Which is why I need to blog. I don't want to blog... but I have to get my thoughts out and sharing with DH just does not satisfy my soul.
So I write to her. She was and is and will always be my Best Friend. And I'm so in love with her and miss her so much that I still believe that she will come back.
Now, don't get me wrong. We weren't lovers in a physical or sexual way. We were Lovers in that we had committed to each other and I had trusted her to be with me Forever and I loved her.
That's what happens when you're 7 years old and the New non-white Kid in Town and Lisa walks up to you and welcomes you to 1st grade.
I will work on this blogging business. I'm not used to others reading my thoughts - that's assuming others will read this...
This venue will be for me to share my thoughts in my life as I go forward without a Best Friend, but still seeking for Lisa to come back.
